Are you the cook at your house? Is it by choice or by default?

Cooking was a hobby for me as a child. I enjoyed the praise my parents offered when I successfully made biscuits from scratch a la Little House on the Prairie, and the sense of accomplishment that came from creating a multi-course sit-down dinner complete with Veal Cordon Bleu (which I wanted my parents to "dress for," but they refused... these are the woes of an only child.)

Don't you love the imaginary 1950s?

Enter marriage and children. For those first few years, cooking was not a pleasure. It was the culinary equivalent of climbing a fourteener while dragging hubby and small children along behind. Hubby, though wise enough not to say "this isn't how my mother made it," didn't rave over the meals I prepared for him the way my insecure wifely self needed him to. (And he has this strange habit of sniffing everything before he eats it, which puts me on edge, waiting for him to scrunch up his nose and reject the plate.) To his credit, he always ate, even if  it was only a tiny portion, of whatever I'd created.

The kiddos were worse, especially when they were small. Cooking with toddlers and babies hanging off your tired body like giant tumors is more like forced hard labor than a simple daily task. Worse, they had no qualms about protecting my feelings when presented with a dish (usually something with vegetables) they found suspect.

More than once during those early years of marriage and parenthood, I escaped to my room during dinner to cry, deeply wounded by the response to my heartfelt creation. Sometimes I withdrew quietly, in a fit of pity, and sometimes my departure from the dining room table was accompanied by screeching and door slamming.

My husband was always perplexed by my reaction.
"I didn't say I don't like YOU... I just don't like it when you put vegetables in the casserole. It's nothing personal."

Oh, but it WAS personal. Because I wasn't spending an hour or two slaving in the kitchen for MY enjoyment, I was doing it for my family. My heart had gone into the preparation of that meal. It was "soul food" and when it was rejected, so was I. At least, that's how I perceived it.

I've discovered I'm not the only one. While on medical leave from dinner duty, my grown daughter took over for six weeks. One night she began to cry over her plate, then pushed her chair back and retreated to her room. She'd made something her husband and children, and father and brothers, didn't appreciate (I liked it... it was girl food). The general lack of appreciation... er, refusal to taste it on the part of some foolish young men... hurt her feelings.
I'm older and wiser (I hope) nowadays, and slightly less sensitive. I haven't run sobbing from the dinner table in at least a few years. Not that I remember, at least.

Today I spent two-thirds of my day preparing an orange cake from scratch for my hubby's birthday. For 23 years he has talked about the orange cake his mom used to make for his birthday. (She told me it was from a boxed mix.) That mix, however, is no longer available in our area, and I've probably made a dozen orange cakes over the years in an attempt to recreate the one he remembers from childhood. So far, although they're good, they've never been quite right. I'm not expecting this one to hit the mark, either, but that's OK, because I think I've figured out why that orange cake he remembers was so marvelous: It was soul food, made for him, with love, by his mother.

The best I can do? Continue to create meals for the sake of my family, out of love and concern for their well-being. Hopefully, whatever I make will be at least reasonably healthy and they'll still be willing to eat it. And I can trust that someday they'll get that wistful look in their eyes and talk about my homemade macaroni and cheese, or enchiladas, or chicken packets, and remember that their food was made for them with love, even when they forgot to mention that they liked it, or turned up their noses at the Russian beet stew, the stuffed zucchini, or the mackerel loaf.

Kind of like this...

The simple act of putting on an apron is akin to the spiraling metamorphosis of mild-mannered Diana Prince into the bustier-wearing, lasso-throwing Wonder Woman.

I'm a relative newcomer to apron-wearing, and sometimes it's still hard for me to remember to toss one on before I cook dinner or whip up a baked delight.


But when I tie my apron strings, suddenly it's easier to do the dishes, to set the table, to create nutritious, well-balanced meals for my family. Donning an apron is a tangible reminder that I am the queen of my household domain, and inspires me to rule my roost with renewed grace and creativity.
Whether you're married or single, a working woman or a stay-at-home wife and mother, a grandma, an auntie, a gourmet chef or a successful TV dinner preparer, you can change the world through the simplest of acts: wiping a child's tear, making a cup of tea for a hurting friend, starting a grassroots campaign for a cause you believe in, or running a multi-national corporation.

The humble apron is just one token reminder of the awesome power that belongs to women to transform the world around them for the better

You may have seen the following essay on aprons already, since it has circulated the blogosphere and e-mail loops for quite some time. Even if you have, it's well worth another read.